The beginning of the new year found me so optimistic, so hopeful, and so ready to embrace the remainder of my time in China. Fast forward a few weeks and it's a different story. I'm coming undone. Cue the song: I can't pinpoint exactly where I came off the rails or what it all means, but the feelings are all-consuming. I broke down at work a couple of times in the weeks we came back from the Christmas break, crying uncontrollably at how unfair it all is- once on my second wed